How do i handle being treated like this ?

From your words you sound like a very intelligent person, some of the words that you have mentioned I do not understand. Society in whole cannot pick one person out to reject, I think that you have been let down by a lot of people in your life as I was but it shows you must have some strength and courage inside of you to still be here to tell your tale as I am but instead of getting the help I needed so bad I turned to heroin and had a life of crime, sickness and prostitution. I was homeless and often felt just how you described. I do not know how I got myself out of that lifestyle, I woke up one day and knew I could not go on and if I had of I know I would be dead with the risks I had to be taking each day in order to get monbey for drugs and other stuff I was on. I am hear to tell my tale also but very nearly wasnt. Try and focus on the things you have such as some where to live, I take it your in good physical health, being able to have access to the internet, these are only little things but make the difference to your life immensly, feel free to e mail me through my profile, I will always reply. I have also made good mate's on here, join us!